Wednesday, November 28, 2012


Destiny, is it?

When you learn to overlook the negatives because you have to!

The feeling of satisfaction that you just get when you're home.
And nope, I am not home right now.

You can never know what goes on in a person's life each day of his/her life wholly even if this person is a family member or your closest friend or spends his/her whole day with you..
You never know what goes on in one's head really. The events. The people he/she met, who made/messed up the day. The things one needed and not like he/she couldn't get but because it didn't feel right. When you're in different situations with different people around you, it makes you think of whether you would've gone about it the same way otherwise or not.

When a dog takes your bad mood away and you turn out to be in the exact opposite mood! What animals do for you without you having to ask for any of it at all. But it shouldn't come as a surprise.. Us humans have calculations of debits and credits towards each other and 'unconditional' is a rare term understood and used today.

A song you repetitively listen to, only to find an article that relates to it all the more!

When it's your really, really close friend's birthday and you have to wake her up early the next morning so she doesn't miss her flight home! Haha. And you put an alarm to do that :)

I love my laptop's keypad :D

When you're pepped for no apparent reason.

Mumbai is getting delayed and is not on schedule, but, hopefully, this time shall fly..
Yes, at the same time, it's actually not been bad.

The importance of people around you.

When you see one noticing things happening to someone, but when others, equally important, went through the same, then where on earth was your observation?

Increased petrol 'and' diesel rates, LPG rates and then VAT!

We're living in a world where we convince each other to buy different products and services. That's all.

When you lose something, and even if it's really small, but it was one of your favourite things.
Its bugs. Just does.

The Amul's bill boards across the country really do reflect the current affairs in the most powerful and succinct manner.

Double Chocolate Decadence.

Why do men like Ian Somerhalder and Varun Dhawan only exist in the 'reel' world?

Real me : "Is it still sarcasm if I have to explain it?" Me in my head : "No."

Dirty And Clean - Stephanie Schneiderman
Never Say Never - The Fray
Vegetable Car - Joshua Radin
Make It Without You - Andrew Belle
Rewind - Diane Birch
Edge Of Desire - John Mayer
Write You A Song - Plain White T's

"The universe is change, life is what thinking makes of it."
"A good holiday is one spent among people whose notions of time are vaguer than yours."
"You never know what a girl actually means when she says 'No hard feelings'."
"It isn't the mountain ahead that wears you out, it's the grain of sand in your shoe." 

Friday, September 7, 2012

Just quotes this time

"Weekends don't count unless you spend them doing something completely pointless."
- Bill Watterson

"He did love her, sir, as a gentleman loves a woman... He loved her, sir, and loved her not."
- All's Well that Ends Well

"What's the difference between netas and their cars?
The cars are brand ambassadors."
- Manas Gupta

"If it's stupid but works, it isn't stupid."
- Paulo Coelho

"I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you"
- Something Stupid By C. Carson Parks [Sung by Frank Sinatra]

Little Bad Girl (Final) - David Guetta ft. Taio Cruz & Ludacris

Some more of that peppy good music :)
Weekends :)

Something or the other going on, yes..
And, more in too many pieces this time

But, I do wish the easier path could be taken.

"Behind my smile is everything you will never understand."

Monday, August 20, 2012


The city is growing on me.
I'd never imagined my life here, to be full of such spontaneous plans and never thought it would leave me quite blank by the end of the day at the same time!

Different episodes of life.
New people. Common names capable of uprooting thoughts from the past.
Good times. Trance music. Different edited versions of the same track.
Surprises. New stuff you never expected. Short, short home visits.
School friends. Lifetime friends. Meeting people after years. When you didn't want time to pass but it flew like it always does.
And the work life that goes on for six days of a week and the one day you get off, never seems enough with work given even from 'work'! #Didn'tKnow #Hadn'tExpected #Wasn'tPrepared

The uncertainty.
One of those days when n number of questions cross your mind when the word 'career' has managed to take over your thoughts for the day!

Mary Kom. Respect.

The moment when you have to explain things to yourself to keep it together!

When the figures of rupees are incomprehensible in terms of scams taking place around you or the taxes that just one company pays... No clue about where 'that amount' of money goes.

Dear face wash commercials, nobody actually splashes their faces with water like that.
Sincerely, my whole damn bathroom floor is wet.
Haha. #LovedThisOne

Save The World Tonight - Swedish House Mafia
Feel So Close To You - Calvin Harris
Other Side - Federico Scavo
Just Breathe - Anna Nalick
Forever - Chris Brown

"A woman's heart is an ocean of deep secrets." - James Cameron

Rose : "It's so unfair."
Ruth : "Of course it's unfair. We're women. Our choices are never easy."

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Long overdue but still not it

Life can be worse than you'd imagined it to be.
Or not :)
It all revolves around the time you take to get over things/your own thoughts. And ofcourse the time taken to let go of what crosses your mind more often than expected.

Sometimes you say the right things at the wrong time.
Does that even make any sense?

Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince.
Albus Dumbledore :)

We live in a place where honking is the mantra when you're driving a vehicle on the road.
Where education loan rates are actually higher than car loan rates.
Where pizza does end up reaching your doorstep faster than an ambulance!
Where the food rates are subsidized in the parliament to an extent that doesn't leave you in a position to compare it all with the price a common man pays, with the increasing variety in the types of taxes being levied!
But what's important, is to admit that 'we' are a part of all of this. Talking about it doesn't do anyone any good. But spreading the message, maybe close to nothing again. Acceptance is what's required. To be able to convert that acceptance into working on it in some form.

Delhi. The culture. The Shoshabaazi. It really is going to take some time for me to get used to it all and be willing to see the nice side of it. Seriously.

New Girl ~ The tv show. I like :)

Irrespective of whether you believe in it/fate or not.. If it were to be believed for a moment that it's fixed,
You do get to choose the way/journey to get to it but!

When the importance of weekends is truly understood by you.
Sleep deprivation.

A Beautiful Mind - The extraordinary movie :)
Based on a true story.

When the male to female ratio is less than 10:1 where you work... People can't stop going like O.o
And, let me mention, it really is disturbing!
#Seriously #MaybeTheDelhiEffectToo

The office life.

So much in pieces still.

"Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light."
"People find it easier to forgive others for being wrong than being right."
- Albus Dumbledore

Friday, July 6, 2012

Words on shuffle mode

'Zindagi mein kuch kamao na kamao, kuch dost zaroor kama lena..'

When you miss a person who's sitting right next to you, not because the person's changed and you miss the old him/her.. But because this is another version of this person with additions that are new to you. Additions that haven't exactly changed him/her overall but have changed enough for you to want to drift apart yourself.
There is a difference. The new him/her or the renewed him/her.

When your day begins with the most unexpected replies from people! *sigh. And once again, the grass doesn't fail to seem greener on the other side!

When you move away by choice, not because you got tired of trying, or because the person's not worth the effort (not at all).. But because you know things are different and nothing can be done about it, really.

When your tears come out at the drop of a hat
The feeling of not wanting to exist
Just not wanting to exist
The only thing that keeps me going is the fact that I just need some answers in life. That's all. And once I've got those, I'll be in a much better position to know what I really want.

When you remember the time you were there for a friend who called you crying..
And one of those, who lets go of things faster than you can imagine, doesn't take things to heart all that fast, and is not like me at all. Her tears are a rarity.
You just feel right within yourself for existing when this person needed you.

When one drifts apart and you watch it happening

"No matter how many plans we make or steps we follow, we never know how our day is going to end up. We'd prefer to know, ofcourse, what curveballs will be thrown our way. It's the accidents that always turn out to be the most interesting parts of our day, the people we never expected to show up, a turn of events we never would have chosen for ourselves. All of a sudden you find yourself somewhere you never expected to be and it's nice, or it takes some getting used to. Still, maybe you'll find yourself appreciating it somewhere down the line. So you go to sleep each night thinking about tomorrow, going over your plans, preparing for them, and hoping that whatever accidents come your way will be happy ones."
Sometimes all you need is space.

I still don't get why people say things for the world .. (without meaning any of it)

You say things you don't mean all the time
And how one's mind never seems to realize how much difference that is capable of making to the people around you!

That awkward moment when you're at the Heineken Brewery at Amsterdam and 21 years old... But all you can do is look around! Haha. #TrueStory

When you're in a canal cruise and you're in the mood to click pictures but your camera battery dies
And then you have innumerable thoughts crossing your mind but you cannot pen them down because you just can't. And then there are people there talking about the business they do and all the normal chit chat that can happen anytime at any part of the world.. But they're loud and you're on a trip in another part of the world and you can hear only partial things about the history being said out loud (even though you're not the history person, yup).. But you'd wanna know how much ever is being told to you because of the relation one makes to things around as one sees it.
And that's precisely what you're there for! The importance of alignment between the purpose of where you are and why you're there.

Pictures and what you gathered in your head or in your phone's memo pad is all that stays with you at the end of a trip
But people don't mind playing cards on a boat when you're being told stuff about areas you're crossing
But no, that ain't gonna happen

When it's windy and you like the wind. But the air is cold
But you like it anyway
The one option you have with you that way is to pop your head out of the window right next to you (if you happen to be that lucky) to get away from all the crap-chat (or rather, the chat you couldn't care less about) and probably let the cold air make you even colder, to the people around you (pun intended).

Yup, that's another trip!

But the happiness even with the thought that you got waffles, pancakes 'and' french toast for breakfast every morning for a week! :D

I like to believe in certain things :)

"They take pictures of mountain climbers at the top of a mountain. They're smiling, ecstatic, triumphant. They don't take pictures along the way 'cos who wants to remember the rest of it. We push ourselves because we have to, not because we like it. The relentless climb, the pain and anguish of taking it to the next level. Nobody takes pictures of that. Nobody wants to remember. We just wanna remember the view from the top. The breathtaking moment at the edge of the world. That's what keeps us climbing. And it's worth the pain. That's the crazy part. It's worth anything."

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Apt much?

When life just chooses differently for you.
It's like you never knew or imagined what it'd be like when the change takes place.
But then you were always with a certain group of people and the only one who left or for that matter, had to leave, was you. Yes, I do admit that it comes down to the choices one makes in life. But the underlying points are still the factors that led you to make that choice in the first place.

The thought of me leaving Mumbai after my graduation is one of the thoughts in the list that keeps coming and going. And, it is going to take a while for it to completely go, like the other thoughts that I've been working on, to get rid of.

I do not like the idea of keeping something borrowed.
Why do people assume that, just because most of the people on this planet keep borrowed things with themselves and use it as if it were theirs to own, that everyone would do that?

When you stay at a place that doesn't get you the homely feeling at all
How many ever times you've tried so far

I don't get it.
How does one not see what I see? How?

Loud music

People apparently eat a lot when they're angry
I come here when I am.

"We're all susceptible to it, the dread and anxiety of not knowing what's coming. It's pointless in the end, because all the worrying and making of the plans for things that could or could not happen, it only makes things worse. So walk your dog or take a nap. Just whatever you do, stop worrying. Because the only cure for paranoia is to be here, just as you are."

I hate it when you can't/don't end up living up to your word.. Be it to a driver..
Not because you had something to do with it but then you won't shift the blame because you don't/shouldn't do that. Aah, do the right thing...

When you're at a place for no apparent reason at all !!!

When you can't wait
Because it's that HOT

Anything in excess can get annoying. And travelling is that anything for now.

I just want to have that life back that I had in Mumbai. Badly.
My bed.
My cupboard with things and I know their 'location'!
Having stayed away from home for nine years changes your way of looking at things around you in more ways than you had thought!

Off I Go - Greg Laswell
Cosmic Love - Florence And The Machine
And Then You - Greg Laswell
#WhatMusic! :)

Mayo Food. Sunday mornings, Thursday dinners, Tuesday silent lunches...
From 'Gullus' topping the list to "Ice cream for sweet dish (not dessert, sweet dish) tonight! :D Ha!"
..Horlicks-ed milk/water ~ fudge on the bread for b'fast! (borrowed horlicks. Haha), Maggi with pizza topping and CGS a.k.a. Chilli Garlic Spread, Midnight Fudge made by experts of the dorm with Kaccha Maggi and tang to toast for birthdays!
I don't know why we even cribbed.
Plus the tea times at 4 pm where a piece of water melon made you say, "Guys, you have to see what we're getting for tea today!!" :D

How much I miss Mayo!

[Mayo = Mayo College Girls' School, Ajmer]
[Gullus = Gulaab Jaamuns]
~ Partial credit for the above paragraph to a school friend :)

Looking forward to a couple of things ahead now! All very, very soon.

"When we're dying or have suffered a catastrophic loss, we all move through five distinct stages of grief. We go into denial because the loss is so unthinkable we can't imagine it's true. We become angry with everyone, angry with survivors, angry with ourselves. Then we bargain. We beg. We plead. We offer everything we have, we offer our souls in exchange for just one more day. When the bargaining has failed and the anger is too hard to maintain, we fall into depression, despair, until finally we have to accept that we've done everything we can. We let go. We let go and move into acceptance."

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

A corner of my mind : part 6

"The person that invented the phrase 'happily ever after' should have his ass kicked so hard."

Everything happens for a reason but the reason is not always good.

Other people's lives aren't as complicated as we make it in our heads. Sometimes, it's all about hearing them out. When you could just be there to listen to that person say it all out loud. It doesn't have to have an outcome or a conclusion, and it does not necessarily have to be acted upon.

The world is a man's toilet.
As a friend of mine aptly puts it in those five words, I couldn't agree more.


The feeling/thoughts when you're sitting alone in a car for a few minutes with that silence, playing your kind of depressing songs

When you let people slip away.. By choice.

Some thoughts that one should keep to oneself. Really.

Men and chauvinism
And how they judge ~ hilarious!

Sometimes, you want to do something because it's fascinating, and the other times it's backed by more convincing reasons, but the point is, you 'want' to do it.

It's not always what it looks like and it's not always what we believe
~ I might've mentioned that so many times earlier, but it's been true for so many things, more than sometimes.

"Doesn't matter how tough we are. Trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives, trauma messes everybody up, but maybe that's the point: All the pain and the fear and the crap. Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward, it's what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up, before we can step up."

Wednesday, May 23, 2012


It hurts.
Not with what was done but the fact that it wasn't shared before it was acted upon.
Not because it was done to make someone extraordinarily happy, but the part that wasn't told and looked from your angle/point of view by the one person who considered you closest in life or at least you were told so.
Not because it was more than what you have been given in the past but because higher wasn't even freaking considered for you. That's the part that hurts.
Priorities that change with people entering and leaving our lives.

"Change… We don't like it, we fear it. But we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change, or we get left behind. It hurts to grow. Anybody who tells you it doesn't, is lying."

Some things are just better unsaid. Really.

It surprises me when I look back and read what not I've said to one person at a point of time in life.
So much. As if he/she were my own personal diary. It's just that it hurts, only a little, yes, if I may say so, that not all the people make it to the list of people there, as a part of your life today.

"The thing about addiction is, it never ends well. Because eventually, whatever it was that was getting us high, stops feeling good, and starts to hurt. Still, they say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom. But how do you know when you're there?
Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes, letting it go hurts even worse."

Yes, I'm back to watching Grey's Anatomy! :)
So much to catch up still though.

I really have to do something to conceal my emotions better for God's sake. When your goddamn face just shows everything that's going on inside or at least the big picture. I try so hard. It sucks you know.

"Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn't just about being tough. It's about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don't have to be tough every minute of every day. It's okay to let down your guard. In fact, there are moments when it's the best thing you could possibly do, as long as you choose your moments wisely."

Sometimes, a person who's known you in and out and still does, behaves like a stranger, even though it's unintentional or at least you think it is. It's just not normal to me, even if it is something about your choice of food.

And, life has a lot ahead in store for you/me. We just need to keep at it and have faith sometimes. I know it's easier said than done but you're strong and you won't give up :)
~ Those are the lines I said to a friend the other day. But then again, "Life is what happens to you when you're busy making other plans." And my favourite question for just the above,

About the show, Satyamev Jayate, I couldn't agree more with just this ~
'Well if Satyamev Jayate is such a waste of time,  then you probably have a better idea. If that's the case, please go ahead and implement it.'

'Respect your elders. They made it through school without Google or Wikipedia.'
"It is not our abilities that show what we truly are. It is our choices." - Dumbledore

PS- Cold mangoes with vanilla ice-cream is one of the best things ever :D

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Because life's an illusion?

The good feeling :D
When Bollywood movies can be simply entertaining if one is willing to get entertained!

When 2-3 hours of a movie go on to depict so much that it always seems impossible to happen in life
#ReelWorld #NotRealWorld
But points for effort.

Punjabi :D
Songs, language, weddings, culture

When you think you're past a thought, that crosses your head, yet again

If Only
~ the movie.

How life can absolutely shift the basis of faith!
How you believe you'd have lesser regrets if you lived one of the days of your life, as if it were your last..
only to know, it wasn't yours but the one you did it all for!
When one hasn't been the expressive one all their life, and finds it difficult to say it all in words, but manages to express oneself one fine day, it means something on another level at that point!

Dreams are important. And so are tears, at some point.

'How can so much ego be in one relationship?'

I can't wait for June and things to keep me busy and not think of crap that the mind has full probability of acting upon!

Music, what would I have done without you!

When it's not your place to say!

"I'll tell you a riddle.
You're waiting for a train, a train that will take you far away.
You know where you hope this train will take you, but you don't know for sure. But it doesn't matter.
How can it not matter to you where the train will take you?"
"Because you'll be together."

Inception :)

Redemption - The Strange Familiar
The Argument - Aidan Hawken
Never Let Me Go - Florence The Machine
Payphone - Maroon 5
You Got Me - Colbie Caillat
Somebody That I Used To Know - Gotye

"Knowledge is knowing a tomato is a fruit. Wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad."

"Do you know how hard it is to fall asleep when that's what you're supposed to do?"

‎"Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over."

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

# When

When you always make a conscious effort to understand, without fail...
But a point comes when you're so close to giving up, that, it's like a flashback of your life in your head.. And you tell yourself, it's too soon to give up. Or for that matter, that maybe life has things planned that are on their way to get to you. And, you hold up and take a deep breath, and go along with it all.

Ships In The Night by Mat Kearney
#JustHeardIt :)

When you don't have any regrets in life so far, but things are rubbed in your face incessantly at one point

When music comes to the rescue so often!

When you know you have the guts and you don't have to prove anything to anybody, because
You know.. But your morals don't allow you.

And, "Life is beautiful" - Eh?

When words aren't enough to describe it all

When a camera can't capture what your head does!

When 'living it up' feels real :)

"The best things we know are the things we haven't been taught."
"Knowledge and timber shouldn't be much used till they are seasoned."

Friday, April 13, 2012

A corner of my mind : part 5

Black nail-paint
Train journeys
A trip after graduation
With friends
Good music

Not just a song that gets your feet tapping, but one that keeps you peppy as an after effect for a bit :)

So much irony
Back to the looks
Judge-y eyes

Not a Union territory anymore? #Haha #So random

Sea (that you could see)
Sand (at your feet)
Water (that touched and went)
Wind (only the feel ofcourse)

Nature at its best
Irony at its best
Expression at its best

Architectural designs
..And how I've been to so many churches before (when I was younger).. And don't remember even the significant details!

Comfy beige pants. Aaah :)
Naariyal paani

#Goa :)

The few things you don't have everyday, but when you do, it all becomes a part of your memory:
Coconut water (Haha!)
Ganne ka Ras
Raspberry Dolly
Gola (probably Kala Khatta)
Falooda Kulfi

Raabta - female version and the male version - such well written and sung songs!

And when you think your graduations's over, the University announces a re-exam for a subject due to its inefficiency and because ofcourse the paper got leaked!
*it took place, yes, but it was more of a meherbaani on the university than.. sigh*

A final goodbye to Mumbai happened..
But it hasn't hit me yet, and it probably won't for a while...

"Some people don't understand the promises they're making when they make them," I said.
"Right, of course. But you keep the promise anyway. That's what love is. Love is keeping the promise anyway."
- John Green

"Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens."

Monday, March 12, 2012

Wrong time

When one person's words mean, I-don't-know-what to you?
When he/she fails to understand the importance of him/her in your life
When, with all your self control, you still want to get in touch with a person irrespective of who makes the goddamn effort
And being all composed and calm in your head, you come up with something and act upon it, and then it doesn't even satisfy you like half the percentage of what it could have
And that's when I say to myself, why is it so hard? Why?

Life and its plans for you and people that mess with it.

Other things in pieces, yes.
Exams. Studies.

Yes, logically and practically thinking and looking at the problems of the world, and with so many other problems people out there are facing...
But for once, if I don't?

Conclusion about one thing for sure:
The subject I end up studying the least for, accidentally, always gets me more marks.

When will people understand they have to stop wasting electricity?

Khushbu - A small girl (supposed to be in about 1st or 2nd grade) who likes to work like her mother, and wash clothes/utensils and doesn't like the idea of going to school to study and refuses to even entertain that thought in her mind!
How circumstances in life can lead one to think like that!

Crime Patrol - what a show!
Human trafficking - eye opener/reminder for so many people
I really was surprised about it taking place in Andheri, Mumbai particularly!

Paralysis - How it can change one's perception and to what an unimaginable extent man!

Dear Time,
Don't fly.
One that values you or atleast tries to.

How happiness takes over one day ~
And you don't know if you're low or not but random conversations and music come to your rescue even when you had the option of sleeping because you were genuinely tired with your eyes burning?

And when will this world stop talking and worrying about each other's lives for once and try and mind their own freaking business, for once?

Secrets - One Republic
Embrace - Celebrate
#Music :)

"There is no rule on how to write. Sometimes it comes easily and perfectly; sometimes it's like drilling rock and then blasting it out with charges." - Ernest Hemingway.

Thursday, March 1, 2012


The times when you're happy that you managed to get somebody to distract themselves from what was making them feel low. And in return the person left the biggest smile on your face by saying the words you didn't expect.

Music. Solitude. Time you think you have, but you don't really. Existing friends who understand and have contributed to your life on another level. Friends that are yet to be made and are growing with time, maybe. Crushes that come and go. People you think you fell for. People you really fell for. Love. Real love.
Love for food. Home food. Lyrics. The melody. When happiness takes over.
And not because I feel happy but because I am?
Friends who make you realize life's worth living and fighting for. The ones who are there when you told them not to be :)

Chumpy (olive oil in your hair) after long! :D

"Exams. No, why do they do this to us?"

Chai/Milk with rusk :D

Words can do SO much. They can kill. They are too powerful to be used on someone who doesn't know what he/she's thinking.

When is it not about looks? Seriously.
You meet someone, your first unconscious/conscious judgment about the person is always based on the damn looks. Body language and the clothing comes right after that, yes. But the looks is what one is always judged by. I don't like it ya. I mean I get it that what other basis is one supposed to consider before taking the next step and all.. But still!

The Lucky One - I wanna see!
Nicholas Sparks :)
*When did Zac Efron get so big?*

Imagine - John Lennon

"How do you explain something that you can't even understand yourself?"
"It's destiny I think. I think that's what you hope that love is, is destiny."

Monday, February 20, 2012

Who is to say?

Unfailing faith.
Courage to take it all with a smile on your face when you know you're going to die.

Time flies when it's expected the least to :)

At the same time,
Not caring makes it all so much more easier. I'm not saying that's what should be done. But I'm certainly saying it hurts lesser. Like the human switch could be turned off or something.
But then again, the power who's made this world and controls it, has kept all of this in mind to maintain the balance and let emotion and suffering and love be a part of one's life and help one form his/her own beliefs.
"Without suffering, there'd be no compassion."

At the end of it, it's all very individualistic. We tend to give the authority to someone else to be able to decide our sadness/happiness without even realizing we did so, until we're hurt/ecstatic.
I remember mentioning this or something close to this, earlier as well.

Just cutting off from the world and maybe going to the extreme for once and see what that's like even when you know it's darker.

Expectation when you don't follow/deliver what you expect the other to?!
Words are very important and they must be remembered, and used carefully when you know the intensity of the meaning of them, for crying out loud!

When you're afraid of your whole heart never opening again, when you lose someone you loved unconditionally.

"Reality leaves a lot to the imagination."
"Music is everybody's business. It's only the publishers who think people own it."
"Truth only means something when it's hard to admit."

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Reel world or real world?

The Lion Sleeps Tonight - The Tokens

When your heart sinks for a bit, when you remember an old school friend who passed away and how unexpected things can turn out to be in life and the realization of the fact that you really, really never know.
I miss her. Neha Puri.
One of those very few genuine people I'd come across in my life.

Olivia Binfield
I almost had tears in my eyes when I saw that video
When you come to think of it, you can learn so much from everyone around you. And we all know that. It isn't something new or something that hasn't been figured out/discovered. But then again, it's like one needs to be reminded of certain things in life even though one knows all of it somewhere in their subconscious self.

Maybe there really isn't anything as impossible. At least as far as the imagination of the human mind goes. And if the factors that control one's determination/passion in reality are on another level :)
A seven year old with that conviction, and understanding of the rights and the wrongs, and beliefs...
It really did leave me speechless with a tear at the edge of the eye.

Naariyal paani :)
It gives a different level of satisfaction. On a different tangent maybe?
Apart from quenching the thirst in a manner that you'd wanna take a deep breath (almost as good as closing your eyes and aligning things in your mind with the rest of your body for a moment), it just makes one feel good overall.
When I think of it as coconut water, in my head, I go like, how angrez is that? Haha.
Although those are the words for it in english, I get it. But whatever, I will always call it naariyal paani :)

Too much of the subject Accounts can leave my brain not functioning (for a while) well enough to figure out how to cross the road. And seriously. #HappenedToday

Ability to accept/admit things. SO important. Acceptance always adds to the steps of getting there, where you think you want to.

I like Mumbai people :)
Friendly. Don't bother you. Don't look at you from eyes that might want to harm you in any sort of way at all.

Oh and as per the last post,
Since it was supposed to be an outburst and it didn't exactly turn out to be one, I still have some subsided bit left in my thoughts somewhere. But nonetheless, for now, I didn't realize at all until I finished writing that post that it was the 14th of February yesterday. No specification at all towards that, considering the post was pretty much revolving around males. #AbsoluteCoincidence

"Everything you can imagine is real."

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Just sad?

Disgusted. At our generation's perverted thought process. Whatever happened to genuineness in this world?!

Where is chivalry dead and why does it seem to get replaced by chauvinism?
Where are all the nice guys in the world? Or it really is a myth that there are some who exist?

The theory of all men being the same is probably right.

Sometimes, our instinct can be wrong. About a thing/situation/person.
It doesn't have to be like we're picturing it. It's obviously like the sea. The more you step into it, the deeper you go, you find out, it's not all that different. Or I should probably remove the words, 'all that' also from there. Because it's not something unusually different at all and it falls in the same category like the rest existing in the world.

If I believe, I always mean everything I say and make it clear when I don't.. I guess not even a fraction of this world likes to believe that there might actually be people saying things they mean and not just for a conversation to take place or to please the other or, whatever.

There's more I have in mind regarding that bit. But it's all in pieces.

Joseph Morgan - A fine actor! :)

"Without music, life would be a mistake."
"A bird doesn't sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song."

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

One after another, because there's always a first time :)

The time to leave the city is close.
So close that it's been two years since I started this already.
Yes, a lot has changed since then.
The name of my blog is all about Mumbai and that is sorta self explanatory.

The thought leaves me blank...

When you have to tell yourself to calm down and not do a word vomit because of however people behave around you
When happiness could be just the availability of a plug point close to your bed. I’m not even saying a plug point right next to the bed. Close would do when all you have is one in the whole room which is located centrally at the area for which you’d have to move your ass, yeah.

Charlie Brown – Coldplay
Avicii – Penguin Club Mix
Sweet Disposition – Temper Trap

When you have to set the music volume to the highest so the words coming out of someone else’s mouth don’t get onto your last nerve

When font contributes as a factor in wanting to read a particular article/whatever.

"I'd said it before and meant it : Alive or undead, the love of my life was a badass."

A weekend narrated on a weekday?

There are people who just put on a good show, you know.
And they either think they've managed to make the world believe and buy their crap or
they've managed to atleast convince themselves thoroughly. But who knows how much of that is true.
I have no idea what they wanna prove to the world or what they think they'll get by doing so. Or they probably don't want anything in return, not that they don't expect but they're in denial.
I believe, to be able to accept what you feel and how you feel is something that takes courage and one should never give up. Because, "It's so hard to admit" sometimes.

Saying it out loud to someone is another thing all together. I think if you can get yourself together after what almost broke you, you're stronger than you could ever be. Something/someone you didn't expect passes your life path and leaves you with assumptions, judgments, conclusions in your head and at the end of it, there are things you really can't do anything about, yourself. So believing that there is a power up there, I guess we should just do our bit.

Don't you think it takes so much effort to prove to the world everything that you do, where instead you could just live and go on with things that come along without thinking of whatsoever? We make things complicated for ourselves at the end of the day and are looking for someone to shift the blame to.

Love. The feeling that leaves you out of words when you've been one, to be able express yourself best at any point of time.
Distractions are important at some point.
Be it whatever.

When there are things you genuinely look forward to, after painting a vague picture in your head about it all.

A man will never be able to understand a woman's emotional level.
Or rather the extent she could go to prove herself.

The Scarlet Letter
Easy A
#WhatMovies! :)

When the night went well with sizzling chocolate brownie and maggi, watching a sensible, thought provoking movie followed by a sleepover at a friend's place, the morning seemed fresh even after four hours of sleep with the aftereffect of my friend and me, being chirpy and talking drivel.

The determination of a woman. Her love. And her strength.

The chirpiness at 8 in the morning when you wake up without an alarm and there's a story to hear from your friend! #GoodTimes

And, one I love,
"Who is to say what is a sin in God's eyes?"

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Another time

When things happen and you find out the reasons fast,
it just becomes easier to acknowledge and take it all and go on with it
When you find out the reasons later, it's only harder

Wind + solitary walks + your favourite songs = :)

But I can't wait for the next chapter of my life to begin. It's like when you know you'll miss what you have with you right now, but you want to turn the page of the book nevertheless. But then again, who says you can?
It's another thing to talk metaphorically and make a comparison to the pages of a book, but at the end, it's life.

When it's not your place to say,
this is what one could, "I'm happy, you're happy"
*an emoticon that's close to a smile*

I always find my heart full of a certain satisfying emotion when I see the kid on the road eating a chocolate given by me, when he/she came and asked for money.
And because I know how rarely that happens, it's an all the more reminder in the face, that says,
'Is se tumhare mann ki gareebi zaroor kam ho jayegi, lekin desh ki nahi'

One time, when I was travelling in the local train and it moved slower than it could!
A boy who wore nothing on his torso, and came cleaning the train, asking for anything to the passengers. And when I searched my bag for a five rupee dairy milk given to me by a friend earlier in the day, and instead I found a ten rupee kit kat bought by me only.
He went a little ahead and opened it with his mouth and looked at me. And I just felt happy.
He went to a corner and ate it up then. And the next minute, he was back to asking for anything, ahead.

Love's To Blame - Joel & Luke
Ocean Wide - The Afters
Brave - Tawgs Salter
In My Veins - Andrew Belle
In The End - Snow Patrol
Love Song - Sara Bareilles

"Whatever happened to chivalry? Does it only exist in 80's movies? I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window. I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey. I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me. I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me. Just once I want my life to be like an 80's movie, preferably one with a really awesome musical number for no apparent reason. But no, no, John Hughes did not direct my life."

"Just because they disagree, doesn't mean you ain't right."

I don't understand how people around behave like all's good in the world sometimes.
Like alright, I get it. Positivity n all. But there's a difference between just being indifferent towards things around you and actually being in a situation when you can't do anything about it.

"Nothing goes as planned.
Everything will break.
People say goodbye.
In their own special way.
All that you rely on
And all that you can fake
Will leave you in the morning
But find you in the day.."

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Doodle or not?

The times when you don't know what you're doing, but you do it anyway.
And, you don't know why, but you do it still.
And I don't have an answer.

Astronomia (Electro Edit) - Tony Igy
Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall - Coldplay

Midnight snacks don't always have a positive effect on the stomach the next morning :|


Excitement because of good music.

Sick of subjects like Accounts.

When you care so much and you'd do anything, and I mean it, anything, to make another human happy ~
Partially, it does feel like your objective of existing is found in the form of another person's happiness, but partially, it feels like it's all in vain and it really, really doesn't matter because it is not necessary that this person understands/wants to understand how much you actually care and how far you could go to prove that.

The feel of Listerine in your mouth at night :D

When phones act weird and love to hang.

The feeling of meeting an old school friend out of the blue at an unexpected place and time, and the good feeling sinking in after a while, even though this person might have never been a good friend as such, but an old school friend nevertheless :)

I never thought I'd like trance music but surprisingly, I do. Atleast the one I mentioned above :)

The quote by John Lennon I love,
"When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down 'happy'. They told me I didn't understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life."

Oh and,
Letting go isn't a one time thing. It is something you do everyday, over and over again.
~ Really?

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Just because.

Winters & Mumbai :)

Between - Courrier
A Drop In The Ocean - Ron Pope
Give Me Strength - Snow Patrol
Holding On And Letting Go - Ross Copperman
Drive By - Train
Before The Worst - The Script 

"I'm unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it..."

The difference in the feeling and interpretation of music and its lyrics, when you hear it out loud in a car and when you listen to the same song through your earphones.

When people/strangers have uncanny resemblance with someone you know.

The good feeling and the bad feeling
And then there's the random instinct feeling and it comes true for someone else but not for yourself.

I can't begin to imagine leaving Mumbai. Just can't :(

The importance of earphones, in general!

"It's everything you wanted, it's everything you don't
It's one door swinging open and one door swinging closed
Some prayers find an answer
Some prayers never know
We're holding on and letting go"

The times when a Sunday morning begins with a low feeling overall
When you don't like the fact that one's words could get your tears out that fast!
When your running nose causes an almost headache and apart from the fact that you're gonna be on your bed the whole day eating and not doing anything substantial as such, it doesn't feel like a Sunday with that sinking feeling
The times when you don't wanna exist. And just not be alive. Temporarily.
And when the world wants to talk to you when you're in no mood to and is busy when you want to.

One for now,
"The thing about addiction is, it never ends well. Because eventually, whatever it was that was getting us high, stops feeling good, and starts to hurt. Still, they say you don't kick the habit until you've hit rock bottom.
But how do you know when you're there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us...
...sometimes letting it go hurts even more."

The concept of marriage - still trying to comprehend that bit.

Things seem changed when one's way of looking at it changes! It doesn't always mean that they have.

The movie, Made of Honour, always makes me happy :)