Not with what was done but the fact that it wasn't shared before it was acted upon.
Not because it was done to make someone extraordinarily happy, but the part that wasn't told and looked from your angle/point of view by the one person who considered you closest in life or at least you were told so.
Not because it was more than what you have been given in the past but because higher wasn't even freaking considered for you. That's the part that hurts.
Priorities that change with people entering and leaving our lives.
"Change… We don't like it, we fear it. But we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change, or we get left behind. It hurts to grow. Anybody who tells you it doesn't, is lying."
Some things are just better unsaid. Really.
It surprises me when I look back and read what not I've said to one person at a point of time in life.
So much. As if he/she were my own personal diary. It's just that it hurts, only a little, yes, if I may say so, that not all the people make it to the list of people there, as a part of your life today.
"The thing about addiction is, it never ends well. Because eventually, whatever it was that was getting us high, stops feeling good, and starts to hurt. Still, they say you don't kick the habit until you hit rock bottom. But how do you know when you're there?
Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes, letting it go hurts even worse."
Yes, I'm back to watching Grey's Anatomy! :)
So much to catch up still though.
I really have to do something to conceal my emotions better for God's sake. When your goddamn face just shows everything that's going on inside or at least the big picture. I try so hard. It sucks you know.
"Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn't just about being tough. It's about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don't have to be tough every minute of every day. It's okay to let down your guard. In fact, there are moments when it's the best thing you could possibly do, as long as you choose your moments wisely."
Sometimes, a person who's known you in and out and still does, behaves like a stranger, even though it's unintentional or at least you think it is. It's just not normal to me, even if it is something about your choice of food.
And, life has a lot ahead in store for you/me. We just need to keep at it and have faith sometimes. I know it's easier said than done but you're strong and you won't give up :)
~ Those are the lines I said to a friend the other day. But then again, "Life is what happens to you when you're busy making other plans." And my favourite question for just the above,
About the show, Satyamev Jayate, I couldn't agree more with just this ~
'Well if Satyamev Jayate is such a waste of time, then you probably have a better idea. If that's the case, please go ahead and implement it.'
'Respect your elders. They made it through school without Google or Wikipedia.'
"It is not our abilities that show what we truly are. It is our choices." - Dumbledore
PS- Cold mangoes with vanilla ice-cream is one of the best things ever :D