Sunday, April 12, 2015

One of those days

I wish I could tell you that things get better, but they don't
You just get to know yourself better

If only your brain knew what to tell your heart when it's being absolutely ridiculous about a situation
One that doesn't even exist, but you love to believe that it will

When you're so used to seeing someone ill...
that you don't even realize that the person is actually still going through the same physical and mental pain, and suffering!
Just because you have become accustomed to it, does not give you the right to treat the other, like it's normal and okay. Because no, it's not normal and it's not okay.
People really need to get that!

You are a big fool if you think you wouldn't get hurt just because you've been good to people all throughout your life!

"The capacity to be alone is the capacity to love. It may look paradoxical to you, but it is not. It is an existential truth: only those people who are capable of being alone are capable of love, of sharing, of going into the deepest core of the other person - without possessing the other, without becoming dependent on the other, without reducing the other to a thing, and without becoming addicted to the other." - berlin-artparasites

You know what's worse?
When you can't f**king ignore a situation completely and be all I don't give a damn and I don't care, not just because you're supposed to be better than that at dealing with it all, but because you're expected to, and not only from one person, but a whole bunch
So, when you know it's going to affect a lot more than you can see infront of you
The relationship between two individuals will always remain fragile, unless there's unfailing faith and trust on the other
And no, that isn't just a rarity
The point is that it takes forever to get there
and one shit lie to make it fall.

"I like to eat truly, drink truly, kiss truly, chat with friends truly, fall in love truly; and when you put so much into all of those things, it's natural that you come out full of scars." - Sabina (berlin-artparasites)

When a person who's compromised and sacrificed all his/her life ~ is made to feel like it's an obligation now
I mean, come on
Why are we so screwed up as a species?

An individual will only choose to believe what he/she wants to believe, irrespective of what kind of a relationship a person may share with another, irrespective of how long it took to build it, and also irrespective of what the accused has been wrongly blamed for and has chosen not to explain oneself for the same
#HarshTruth

"Just overheard two kids getting into a heated argument about iOS and Android. At their age, I was arguing about Apsara pencils being better than Natraj."
- Akshar Pathak

So, this world is cruel
And yes, you'll be hurt
One has got to be prepared for consequences irrespective of the number of good deeds done.

Serendipity :)
[might have to pay some royalty for the usage of that word, since it's not my original thought. Haha.]

"It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you don't stop."

And maybe you're not supposed to talk to another human being at all, sometimes
You'd probably kill yourself in the process, but yeah, you're still expected to keep it all inside you and die with it
And please, I'm not talking about an individual's secret here AT ALL
You're not even supposed to share some thoughts with another human
Thoughts that have been piled up inside your system since a while
Because no, there is no guarantee that your trust will not be broken, no matter how faithful you are to the people in your life
When your trust is shaken, it's done
The part that actually sucks about this entire scenario, is that, you will be hurt
and you will get hurt, no matter what.

I had a dream I was dying
But I found nobody there
And if one last night is all that we've been given
Let's live it like we care
#Lyrics

Sucks
When people sitting across the world can get you better than the ones sitting next to you
The human mind never ceases to amaze me
It sucks how a person is made to go through so much of mental trauma because of absolute unnecessary bullshit
And what's worse is, the person causing this damage is unaware of it
Yes, I do remember mentioning this much much earlier in one of my posts
But since humans have a tendency to repeat their shitty acts, I'm just left with no choice but to repeat myself with my words here

When you've realized that you've already met the most selfish, the most immature individual on earth, who does not have the brain to even understand what degree of selfishness has been reached
When such humans are willing to stoop down to a level, that will jeopardize people's relationships

I hate how people overlook the fact that what they want and like is not the same as the person sitting next to them
No, I do not like what you like
My priorities are different
And when your priorities are different, you're willing to compromise on a lot more than you think!

It's so damn important to remember to not let any of it consume you
Not even your passion
Because you can't afford to lose yourself in the process of it all
Since that's the worst thing that can happen to you!

"It's always surprising to me how many young women think they have to be perfect. I rarely meet a young man who doesn't think he already is."

Sometimes, silence from the other person is better
The more you dig up the dirt
The more exposed you'd be
and the probability of you getting hurt might increase

"I'm trying to beef up my skills. There's still too much getting lost between my head and the page. There are a lot of emotions that are very close to each other. I want to be able to show the difference between nervous and tense. Sad and depressed. Thoughtful and wistful."
~ Words taken from another post of Humans of New York! #BecauseICanRelateVeryMuch

You'd always wish that things had turned out differently
Different than what you thought
Different than the expected
Different than how someone else had predicted it all
Just different
Even if not on a different tangent, but atleast different to a degree that it can be called different.

The only regret in life is ~ 'giving considerable thought to inconsiderate people.'

"The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense."
"The right and the easy thing are never the same."
"Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom."

One Last Night - Vaults
Blame It On Me - George Ezra
Love Me Like You Do - Ellie Goulding
Until The End - Dirty South
1998 - Chet Faker
Closer - Travis
Romance is Dead - Paloma Faith
Budapest - George Ezra
#music

Even if you know what's coming, you're never prepared for how it feels.