Anger. There are some people who get irrational sometimes, and there are some who beat you in stubbornness and refuse to make a conscious effort to look from the other person's point of view! I mean, how can you not know the whole story and pass judgments already? I feel like saying, 'Dude, what is with you?'
Every time I get angry. I write. I've always expressed my anger in writing. In school, if I had an argument with a friend or I was pissed off with anything else, all I needed at those times was a pen and a piece of paper and I would go on writing. There were times, when a friend had to literally come and take the pen away from my hand and stop me, because, it had been hours since I had been on it. I don't know if I've mentioned before that I am a sensitive person and that is one thing I have really been trying to work on since quite some time. And, I have succeeded to an extent.
Things change in time. Everybody knows that. And, so do people. Par, mera yeh maan na hai ki, waqt badalta nahi hai. Guzarta hai. Log waqt ke saath apne aap ko badal lete hain. There are those who are willing to change and those who are forced to. Only the few who remain are the ones, who have managed to be themselves all along no matter what. I wouldn't put myself in any of the three mentioned categories.
I have learnt to control my anger in time. And, when it came to situations where you're out somewhere with your family and it isn't school anymore and there is something which is playing with your head. And, the only way you have learnt to take it 'all' out in the best possible manner is through writing, which is, my case here. You are not in a very good situation. The crankiness builds up and all the things piled up in your head come out like word vomit on someone you didn't want it to come out on.
High school life, or may I say College life, is not anywhere close to something like the movie, 'High School Musical'. Is it? Well, in my case, it isn't remotely close to that. I won't say, I wish it were like that. Because, come on, it's a movie. But, I would say, why not? And, you can't really put the blame on someone or the system, because, this is how it's always been. Things are different in different countries. And yes, I'm reminded of a line said by one of my fellow friends, 'The lesser you know, the merrier you are.' That's true. But then again, there are contradictions.
I heard this song right now. It's called 'Lifesize'. It was played at the end of one of the episodes of 'How I Met Your Mother'. Yes, that's how I remembered I had to hear it again.
Will end by the two lines of it's chorus; 'Larger than lifesize we become
Great in the eyes of someone.'